A love note

My dearest cheese,

I really believed that I was stronger than this. I thought that I could quit you. But the truth is, I’m so lost without you. Even though a part of me feels good for the changes I’ve made and for my decision to walk away from you, I’m still pining for you in a way I never thought possible. It’s only been a week, but my heart/stomach aches for you that leaves me only empty. If ever a cliché rings true, it’s that I didn’t know what I had until it was gone. This week apart has made me realize that I often took you and all of our precious time together for granted. As simple as accompanying a glass of wine or topping off a bowl of pasta, you just made everything more interesting. I mean it when I say you bring flavor – you bring depth – to my life. With you, I can be myself. Without you, I don’t even know who I am.

For the last seven days, it’s like I’ve been walking in a haze. Everything reminds me of you, whether it's catching a glimpse of you on the cover of Bon Appetit or spotting you in a Pizza Hut commercial (and I hate Pizza Hut!). I can’t get you out of my mind. As hard as I try, I just can’t seem to escape the memory of you.

People tell me I have options, that I need to keep an open mind and see what’s out there. But I know better than to believe that there is a substitution - a replacement - for the one true thing.

I miss you. Please come back to me.

Love always,

Allison